dreemcatcher

2007-09-03T01:30:00.000+08:00

2007-07-17T22:05:00.000+08:00

i was right to worry la.. ): sorry i never around to take care of u one then u become like that ): i hope he knows to take care of you.....

haha.. on a lighter note.

BLOOEY! >< blooey's dying aktl..

2007-07-10T20:18:00.000+08:00

i can't help who i am. even if i can change, well, i don't live for you. guess i gna "硬着头皮，厚着脸皮", face up t it this time.. and many times down the road. mm?

2007-07-08T14:44:00.000+08:00

blogging is a waste of time. seriously.. cause when you have a million other things you 'should be doing', i don't see why you should spend precious minutes on nonsensical adolescent ramblings which serve no real purpose.

you see, some people don't really care. they don't care if its your way of connecting with them in hope of strengthening bonds between you guys. they don't give a damn if you wanna be in your own cozy tightknit community, they don't want in. somehow you know that even though this is entirely nobody's fault, you can't help feeling a little sad.

we never really connected, we didn't connect then we aren't connecting now and maybe we never will. years fly by.

anyway since i'm sounding a bit emo here might as well mention the little talk me and jia had about the old blogs we had. for me, ruination, officiallydamned, honeyd(smthiforgot), bluub, tblublack, and the one or two combined blogs.. all gone. and for jia, glowworm, jiaaster and virtualhug.. none of which she has lost.

i'm feeling a little guilty here. what makes people want to erase their past, but then look back and regret later? impulse? well some people don't rly regret, but i do. i'm trying hard to recall how it's been.. the two years i've gone through, what little remnants i have from those times are random yellowed lightsticks and a couple of neoprints.. little autographed pictures, little presents. i would never throw those away, but the memories they can contain for me are still only so much.

i've had a hard time holding on, so i let go. had a hard time letting go too, but i dunnit and now i'm having a hard time turning back. having come full circle, maybe its all about having a hard time afterall.. so why not just hold on?

the talk was nothing much, but at least it helped me decide not to delete this blog. lesson, girl, a lesson.

2007-07-06T00:40:00.000+08:00

we wonder, a lot, about how things'll be like a few mths frm now.

2007-07-05T23:00:00.000+08:00

i'm back (:

2007-02-05T23:26:00.000+08:00

yo man we're the mops ^^

2007-02-02T14:55:00.000+08:00

http://cosmos.bcst.yahoo.com/scp_v3/viewer/index.php?pid=16598&rn=49750&cl=1795157&ch=61492&src=news

if you get there before i do, don't wait up for me

2007-02-02T02:24:00.000+08:00

謝禿 ~ 讓人很沉重的 T.I.A 英文不難 sent 1/31/2007 9:39 PM:
1/29 這禮拜一你生日齁~雖然晚了幾天但是還是要跟你說一聲生日快樂!

wishes from taiwan?

it would move you to tears, too.

2007-02-01T21:23:00.000+08:00

did you know you can roast cockroaches and they'll taste damn yum and crispy T_T
and that new born life mice also taste bu cuo swallowed whole T_T

T_T at least thats all that my dad has been talking about the whole journey home =_= sadly my dad's sadistic and makes a hobby out of traumatising ppl =_= actually everyone makes a hobby out of traumatising me =_= but anyway, my dad-- he's horrible.

well i guess that's where i got my genes =_=

bzzzz today want play soccer one T_T the few of us T_T sze yen brought ball la T_T T_T then end up veh few ppl say yes and then a few more disappear and etc T_T end up nv play T_T veh sad i was mourning abt it for the whole day and my legs damn itching T_T even though i suck T_T haha but veh fun T_T ! dai T_T T_T dai T_T i dowan soccer module to be over T_T haha T_T

anyway i got this during PE today ^^0

its my longest scar ever ! haha not deep but long ! record !

lala.. siyi = power ! haha siyi roxor ^^ but she sprained her leg ytd ): ): haha lalalalal soccer = <3 <3 <3 <3 <3 ! ^^

aneeeewaeeeee its time for photos ^^ ^^

!birhday !

rita ! latha ! <3 ! ^^

jealous? (:

my bro rocks T_T

^^ gr8 tablemates

other

a long todo list we have there haha

i wonder how's this little guy now ^^

we zilianzorrr

she gave me flowerrr ! (: my belated prezzie (:

audrey's burnt hand? ouch =_=

belated prezzie number Two ! JIAAAA ! T_T

banner !

yippee!

woohoo!

^_^""""

heart in middle (: (:

aaaad theyre up!
(for some weird reason richards was taken down for a while on that day so nah we don't see them)

lemme hear ya cheer! ^^

last but not least..

and introduction to my kids ^^

(those are they're NAMES kay)

^^arent they adorableeeee !

zomg O_O

haha just like their father!

kiddddingg ^^

not ^^

LOL bb ! ! !

2007-01-30T23:59:00.000+08:00

yozzie : D

i'm still alive!

omg T_T so much to jiao dai T_T

anyway first of all i gotta thank all those who rmbed my birthday !

birthday for me is the time every year when i feel damn happy and damn T_T. simply cause i get damn touched how my friends remember my birthday and how they really bother to wish me or give me smth la T_T

the only problem is that I get all feeling bad and stuff, cause I am one who forgets half of my friends' birthdays. T_T. stupid asshole, i know. T_T i will do my best to improve okay i swear T_T you guys deserve better T_T T_T T_T

anyway thanks again lo! i had a really great birthday this year aite? (: also to latha and rita who may never see this but i really appreciated this alot ! haha..

hmm for friends who've not heard from me in a while and are still reading my blog..
(as many of you guys have not ceased telling me, i can many times become so uncontactable- its like i just disappeared from the face of earth)

well to SPH friends most of all i wanna apologise for lack of attendance and participation i just wanna let you guys know i really miss yall and will try my best to go back when i can.. but the situation is that i probably won't be allowed to drop by till my mum sees me "buck up"ing =.= i very sad T_T but ive not forgotten u guys and hope u wont forget me too ! >.<>< anyway =".="" ppl ="_="" size="4">JOIN PHOTOG ! ^^

mwaha (:

anyway today Siyi was scrawling all over the board the glorious titles given to our classmates. stuff like RITArded, Joyliza Chualitta and etc... and one of them was Husena the Pig.

so Kevy was like immed telling Siyi to rub it off cuz Husena's muslim. we discussed it for a while.. a muslim will probably be highly offended to be called a pig?

Latha pondered for a while and said that ppl of her religion dont eat beef but if people calls her Latha the Cow she wouldn't really mind? (Leeqi spent half her life laughing over the way that sounded.) But of course the thing about Latha's religion though was that she don't eat beef cause her people worships the cow. Whereas muslims detest barbie.

Related to ethnocentrism? (: anyway it kinda made me realise how important it is to be sensitive to religious stuff like that.

We changed it to Husena the Chicken, Husena the Turkey, and then eventually left it out with a totally dfferent "Hot" Husena who can't melt ice even if she tried.

(: you go girl! (:

lala its late T_T

its a new day

2007-01-05T00:16:00.000+08:00

the holidays have come and gone, and we start the year afresh.

happily (:

2006-11-05T14:54:00.000+08:00

an apology, or two.. maybe ten.

1-6: i'm sorry i hurt you; there wasnt anything i could do to help.. i'm sorry you met me.
7,8: i'm sorry for whatever i've done to make you treat me like that now. i probably won't ever find out, but i really treasure the times we've had..
9: i'm sorry we've not talked a lot lately ! haha but hope u had good times we must talk soon soon soon
10: i'm sorry i can't go to heaven with you =__=

2006-11-03T02:03:00.000+08:00

for that you'd have to exchange something in return; the same applies for everything else.
the trade is fair...sometimes.

zz veh tired now haha stomach veh pain dieeee haha tomorrow pls quick come ! :D

2006-10-30T21:45:00.000+08:00

haha, i got a new number! ask me! haha i lost all my contacts so ..ya. =__= haha thanks for all th concern ok! im ok rly rly thanks ^^ ^^

anw i love my family haha ^^

my chio mum + shuai dad :D

my chio self + shuai dee :D JK. lol.

my shuai dee

guess-.-

my chio maid jerame

my damn chio mum !

haha see alr veh happy suddenly, even tho today supposed to be damn bad mood haha. nt bad hm? (: (:

2006-10-29T12:28:00.000+08:00

you know you're alright

2006-10-29T10:47:00.000+08:00

aiya =__= thought anon was a friend.. mean. =__= dun feel like replying tags alr. lost my phone today! some dumb guy ran off with my bag and after about an hr of searching toilets and dustbins in the dark, we saw my bag on a bench. ya then only a few items gone. lets just say that all the thief has gained is a lousy scratched samsung D600 which has been dropped about 3200 times, a pair of old ugly pants, about 2 bucks, and a pair of specs. :D good job! take teenage girl's bag la! smart. veh tired now but today very fun haha next time go east coast again! :D

2006-10-26T19:39:00.000+08:00

today has been a devastating day for the majority of the rgs sec3 population; many of us are struggling not to slash our wrists or jump off a building..

well? go do something to cheer yourself up before depression engulfs you! life has to go on (i'm sure you wouldnt want to kill yourself before you've seen every single horrible score you've gotten?). so, loosen up a bit. it is still post-eoys.

read something.

like fictionpress or.. this:

things my girlfriend and i have argued about.com
about this constantly quabbling but still very much in love couple, pretty cute.

dress up.

i'm not usually a big fan of jeans, but some might wanna know how to choose the jeans to best flatter your shape, especially now that there'll be more time we spend outdoors(:

listen to some music.

flip to MTV channel and leave it on for hours, or view top 100 mvids :D

surf some blogs. like those you've not visited for some time i.e. xiaxue? lol.

RELAX. this is for you as much as its for myself..! cheer up, tomorrow brings another beautiful day hahah :D for all who've gotten back their papers and feel like shit like i do, don't. for those taking Os, do work hard and add oil. for anybody else.. stop suanning T__T

yea..nevertheless. this coming holidays.. gonna get ready to play hard and study harder hm?

T_______T sigh.

2006-10-24T18:39:00.000+08:00

This Bridge
by Shel Silverstein

This bridge will only take you halfway there
To those mysterious lands you long to see;
Through gypsy camps and swirling Arab fairs
And moonlit woods where unicorns run free.
So come and walk awhile with me and share
The twisting trails and wondrous worlds I’ve known.
But this bridge will only take you halfway there-
The last few steps you’ll have to take alone…

2006-10-23T10:03:00.000+08:00

EO-EOYs are finally over, and i'm determined to dedicate my time to you guys. (:

Somehow, i'm in good spirits.

就这样三年又过了.. 我还是回到这个地方。闭上

眼等你的出现，空气中吻你的脸。我还记得我

们的约定—— 一辈子幸福的约定..为你写的那首

歌他也偷偷的掉泪了。

我比以前还更爱你了，连那风都笑我了..

我想他会告诉你的：我更爱你了。

2006-10-23T09:58:00.000+08:00

有一个傻子趴在村口的井边数着13,13,13，这时

过来一个外村好奇之人，趴在井口看傻子在数

什么，傻子一把将他推下井底，然后数道

14,14,14……

2006-10-17T15:07:00.000+08:00

checkit out its Mr (Light) Brown--

Singlish Security Lecture

wah, you angmoh can cook very well know!

(: via jayden via-ed junyi
via-ed propagandhi

anw, here's some crazy shit (which comes with a free cutie)! x)

Tarzan and Jane
go cheetah, get banana! hey monkey, get funky!

haha (he's alex!) anw, these hotties are from Wassssabi Productions!

more @ roi's account

anw these makes me miss the two chinese boys ): i want the my humps they promised! ): ):

2006-10-13T21:16:00.000+08:00

dammit.

our senses have been so numbed and preoccupied with studying that almost all of us took the last day to realise that this is the end. the end of our time with you guys, i mean.

im so speechless, may be only tears can describe the overwhelming sadness that takes over me at the mention of goodbye.

thank you for all the times throughout the year. all the times.. Thank everysingleoneofYou.

leican is right that we won't remember you forever; you can't do the same for us either.. yet, 不在乎天长地久—— you ought to know that we've enjoyed the days spent with you.. we hope you did too.

2006-10-10T23:44:00.000+08:00

we live in a world thats leaving
amongst people brought together only by-

he lived in a dimension thats been forgotten
rising to the shallow surface on when-

2006-10-05T04:55:00.000+08:00

bzz. been tired lately...

anyone who's still reading: please remember to take care of yourselves yea? sleep enough so you replenish energy is preparation for the upcoming battle..
...
this eoy, we gonna kick ass. (yes u can do that for eoys too)

anyway: islands in the stream by beegees

not random at all ^^

2006-10-01T00:05:00.000+08:00

2006-09-28T19:50:00.000+08:00

i can't feel you..

if only i can't feel anything at all.

2006-09-27T23:54:00.000+08:00

Mr Lau:

stoning for a moment and frownin to himself in that confused manner..

"Do i say Esprain..?"

2006-09-27T16:16:00.000+08:00

i was listening again... this is Cannonball by Damien Rice.

>< im like suddenly crazy over it la itsa damn nice song><
lyrics
fanlisting

anyway, today's msn features were interesting.

the most ridiculous contracts in sports history

what its like to date the girl of your dreams

Is he your dream date?

notice the difference in comments given by th guys and girls? lol man.

zz busy xian sad tired xian.

2006-09-27T00:13:00.000+08:00

8 mins ago was my brother's birthday, as well as joy's.

Happy belated birthday. (:

seeing the smiles on everybody's face today... it was worth it after all. everybody including me were smiling.

we've not seen that for a long long time have we..

sometimes we take people around us for granted and we no longer realise that time spent together could be much happier.. like it used to be.

xian. been so upset lately, today was really heartwarming.

it's like some feeling that i have lost touch with for some time now.

by the way, thanks jiang ning for the talk (: (:

2006-09-24T17:47:00.000+08:00

heyyyie

RULE:
#o1. come up with 15 real things abt yourself
#o2. come up with 5 fake things abt yourself
#o3. jumble them all up and make it into a list.
#o4. tag five people after you're done.

#o1. i have ever two-timed
#o2. i used to like this girl
#o3. i want to do art when i grow up
#o4. i pon school and my parents know it
#o5. i only started wearing skirts in sec 3
#o6. i've never changed handphone number
#o7. i dream about people before i've even met them
#o8. the ratio of my female sweethearts to my male sweethearts (friends) is exactly 1:1
#o9. i don't eat mutton cuz my mum says don't
#10. i dislike saturday afternoons
#11. i read slash
#12. i look at kids and girls more than i do guys
#13. i'm on a diet
#14. i hate my hair
#15. i can't wait to go rjc
#16. i take beginner piano
#17. i think a lot
#18. im not afraid of ppl
#19. i like to sing in public even though i know i suck
#20. i sleep on the sofa

2006-09-23T22:39:00.000+08:00

bzz. how.

2006-09-23T18:05:00.000+08:00

the nova roman myth

here, take a look.

2006-09-23T15:01:00.000+08:00

you sadists???

haha anyways, i didn't realise this stuff was on Utube, till paul told me. Hot man!

rgs teachers day GB skit 2006

Warning: Strictly RGS!

part 1

part 2

x) yay! by the way, if you wanna see more of the performances on that day i.e. MR TOH SINGING, go here mwahahha ^^

2006-09-22T18:59:00.000+08:00

xian. too tired to care already.. bzzz. only regret is that i missed assembly, which sounded fun.. x) haha.

so anyway i tried to talk to them -- don't say i didn't try -- but it turned out like how it always did.

too bad for me, i guess. what's in a family?

2006-09-20T16:44:00.000+08:00

If you define Beauty with luscious red lips, bright large eyes, and a curvaceous body (or in your case an anorexic one), then Venus is definitely not a beauty.

Just like Man has mistaken their lust/infatuations/puppylove as Love, we hold an illusion of the God of Love.

She is simply a female God with plain and average looks, and a petite figure, not particularly voluptuous or skinny. She doesn't have perfect hair; brown locks fall in her face and around her shoulders, tangled at some parts. She doesnt dress up (not to mention scantily); dull cream-coloured robes hung loosely on her small frame. She doesnt ooze charisma, she doesnt radiate warmth.. she doesnt knock people out with a mesmerising flutter of eyelids. she's just so.. plain.

The God of Love, Venus, the Lovely Venus.

on a closer look, you would notice that at the corners of her eyes are constantly wet -- almost as if teardrops were going to roll down her cheeks. Well they never do. besides, with the unexplainably beautiful smile on her face, who could ever imagine her in tears?

the Venus described here is purely my own version and has nothing to do with the 'real' one in Greek(or is it Roman) Mythology

2006-09-20T16:29:00.000+08:00

today i was slightly upset. (:

haha ok lah very upset.. the last time i got so upset with someone was when that bloody teacher ~~cheated my feelings~~ was being such a bastard.

but i was over it quite quickly (: no point harbouring on th past.

so generally im in a quite ok mood..

iwillnotiwillnotiwillnot

2006-09-17T20:12:00.000+08:00

hello world. how long have it been since i posted?

don't know.. lately i don't feel like blogging what i feel.

hmm, tell u what -- let me just put some random links, k.

in rank of juicyness,

1. zemotion,
showcasing the portfolio of Jingna, student at Laselle, photographer, model, makeup artist, illustrater, writer, translator...

- once an RGS student, but transferred out..
- my absolute Idol
- also someone of whom i'm so damn jealous
- among her photos you'll find one set in which our rg friend Alice (if u guys know her) has modelled: DAMN CHIO SHE LOOKS SO DIFFERENT. lolol.

link by: Jiang Ning my lovely gay partner (: (:

2. shawn lee,
yes.. THIS is the blogging grouns of which you must worship. lolol.. i dunno. i slow? now then realise he got blog. mwahah. feast your eyes on this, fans.

link by: this stranger's blog..lol.

3. pink.sg,
probably you guys would have heard of.. a blog shared among people who openly air their opinions on sexual orientation stuff.

- the liberal and non-celebrity version of Stomp (: go read, the articles are worth it.
- Jayden (those who know him) is also a contributor!

link by: Jayden's blog

4. juuichi
lol.. actually just a place with nice LJ icons and blends. lol where else dyou think i got my pretty DPs? (:

link by: yahoo search

5. Asian Women's Wel... OOPS thats the website of the organisation for my SS PT.

Lol guess that's a signal from my brain t get back t work, huh?

2006-09-17T14:48:00.000+08:00

lonelygirl15 is a Youtuber who has put up a series of videos about "her life", only to be exposed as a fraud later on.

On today's Yahoo..

LOS ANGELES - Lonelygirl15 speaks!

And she says she's amazed at her newfound fame.

"I'm trying to deal with it right now," she told The Associated Press in a phone interview Thursday. "I'm not used to this much attention. It's a little bit crazy for me."

The actress who plays Bree on the hit Internet soap opera is Jessica Lee Rose, a 19-year-old who was born in Salisbury, Maryland, and moved to New Zealand when she was eight.

Just three months ago, she was one of thousands of struggling actors in Los Angeles looking to make it big in the movies or on a TV show.

Today, she is the unlikely star of a series of short Internet videos posted on Web sites such as YouTube and MySpace.

Rose was identified after fans of the "Lonelygirl15" videos began to suspect that Bree, the 16-year-old home-schooled precocious teen hosting the segments, didn't exist. Some fans who helped boost the popularity of the videos felt betrayed by what they feared was a hoax perpetrated by a big Hollywood studio to promote some upcoming film.

Amateur sleuths unearthed clues, and stories about the show appeared in the New York Times, Los Angeles Times and other publications, finally forcing the three creators of the Lonelygirl videos to fess up.

While efforts were made to shield Rose's identity, she made her public debut Thursday.

Rose left New Zealand and returned to Maryland in 2005 after her parents split and later that year moved to Los Angeles to study acting at the New York Film Academy.

After graduating in April she started scouring various Internet sites for auditions and came upon a listing on the Craigslist Web site for a project called "Children of Anchor Cove."

"At the time I really didn't know what it was because there wasn't a lot of details on it," she said. "They just said it was an independent project."

After reading twice for the role, she was offered the part.

The show's creators made her sign a nondisclosure agreement, then told her the project was not a film or a TV pilot, but a series of Internet videos.

Rose became suspicious.

"I was hesitant because it's something I've never really seen done before," she said. "I just finished film school and had been taught to be careful of all the scams in L.A. and all the scary people and don't trust people. I was a little nervous."

Rose said she had never checked out YouTube and never watched a video blog. She began looking at the site after she got the part and became more comfortable with the project.

"I figured, what did I have to lose?" she said.

Rose said she pays close attention to comments made by fans and especially the angry response videos posted on YouTube after it was revealed that the Lonelygirl15 videos were not the authentic musings of a teenage girl.

"I can understand their disappointment," she said. "I'm sure they did invest a lot of time in the Lonelygirl15 videos. I feel bad that they invested in it emotionally and were disappointed.

"But Bree is still a character and she's still going to continue with this online series and they can continue to watch if they like. You can't make everybody like you."

Rose said she still does not have an agent and has not yet been offered parts by big Hollywood studios. Her favorite actress is Nicole Kidman and she says she would love to make the kind of movies made by another role model, Cameron Diaz.

"I'd love to be doing fun, goofy movies," she said, "feel-good movies that make people laugh and make people happy. I'd love to do some dramatic pieces later on."

But she vows she will stay with Lonelygirl15 as long as the project continues and won't leave to chase her newfound fame.

"I won't leave it. I won't leave them," she said.

Although i have not been watching her from the start and will not understand why the others (who did) are so furious about this whole Fake thing, i think its still a fun thing that this girl is doing and should go on. If everybody enjoyed the vids, why the fuss? She's cool, man. Stop taking everything so seriously..

one of my favie vids from her: Grillz

2006-09-13T22:31:00.000+08:00

almost surreal?

this life, i can't feel it.

2006-09-08T16:18:00.000+08:00

the world can see what you see of the world, but not how you see it.

2006-09-08T15:20:00.000+08:00

was looking through my received files, and decided its time to post a few pictures about days ive never really blogged about.

Handbells concert: they were so cute..
and even though there was a little friction between us on that night, it was still unforgettable and i treasure the memory.

Photographer and Sender: Siyi

TXY orientation Pursuit Ji Xian: the photo i regretted never taking, and was happy to know someone had it
we were great, and you know it (: (:

Photographer(i think) and Sender: Bo Yuan

Zhipeng's Birthday: all the food, sabo, and fun.
something i've not experienced before.. serious! so thanks a lot alot.

Photographer: Bo Yuan
Sender: Hai Yuan

Raffles London and Paris Trip 2006: (the girls only though)
Learnt so much from it and gained a few friendships too. I want everything to be well, even after. (:

Photographer: unknown
Sender: Kersheng

...sigh? haha.

'The Fall Of The Rebellious Angels' by Frans Floris, 1554, Koninklijk Museum voor Schone Kunsten, Antwerp

"Figure with Meat" by Francis Bacon 1954, Institute of Art in Chicago, Illinois

"The Raft of the Medusa" by Théodore Géricault 1818-19, Musée du Louvre, Paris

"She thinks as much in images as in words, richly and subtly transforming and directing discussion through powerful images"
Go See All Things Beautiful.com now.

2006-09-08T14:27:00.000+08:00

since im stuck at home and miserable, i shall do ten people again. lately theres been so much to say to people, yet not enough opportunities and time..or courage.

1. what to say but thanks? you have always known what to do at times like this (: (: bu kui shi ni.

2. still unsure.. feeling slightly weird. scared, and confused. nice, but scary leh, this feeling. hao?

3. haha with you i really don't know what is this. shouldn't shouldn't.. will try not to.

4. i will be soon over it (: thanks for telling me now i know why you acted like you did.

5. aiya. screw you la.

6. ): won't be seeing you around ler i guess..... must take care ok? rly rly. and study hard (:

7. haha wei Mission ABC. sorry la got obstacle nao then i cannot get to you yet.. must talk to me soon ok! sorry sorry>< >< i got stuff to tell u also

8. wo men liang ge.. haha zhen shi de. you must take care and stop emo-ing ok! smile you CUTE PERSON : D <3!

9. how are you? i miss you alr.

10. please take care lo... haha hope to see you join txy.

haha.. hope certain numbers who are supposed to know i am talking to them will realise i am talking to them -stares at a certain number SIX-

sigh. i hope the world is having fun.

hahaha..

2006-09-08T13:20:00.000+08:00

i'll get caned if i step out of the house for the rest of this week so i'm sorry if i don't turn up for anything.

..but zhicheng i will still try my best.(:

2006-09-08T13:18:00.000+08:00

the fact that i had tried to save it shows how much it means to me. then right before my very eyes you

killed me.

2006-09-08T13:05:00.000+08:00

so.. i tried to pretend it was alright.

that you destroyed my sim card. you could have thrown my phone off the building but noooo you had to break the sim card into two.

i said i could live without a phone, but i never said i could live without my sim card.

for years it has followed me, from primary school till now.. went through with me all my ups and downs. stored the sweetest messages i may never get again. stored the phone numbers of people i may never hear from again. stored in it virtual connections between me and people who may never reach me again just because you fucking broke my sim card.

a handphone number means so much.

you could have done many more of other things and i wouldn't hate you as much as i do now. alright that you try to take me away from the only place i love and the only people i feel happy around anymore. alright that now i've finally found what i'm looking for you want to knock it off my hands. alright that you've been trying to ruin my life, ever since i obtained my PSLE results. alright that you have ruined my whole future-- the only future i ever wanted.

alright... then you break the only item that may turn out to be the only thing i treasure in this life? its not even just an item. its so much more and i wouldn't expect you jerks to understand.

guess what's the best part?
there's nothing i can do cause my life is practically in your filthy hands.

you go on and on about me.. but i am what you made me to be.

2006-09-06T01:22:00.000+08:00

wahhh siao. my head was still in the clouds, from all the chiobu-ness.. then i came home to realise tmw got this:

mrning 9am: bio make up
noon 12pm: zp birthday celebs @ cwp
afternoon: meet chayyoew + ppl @ SPH
then, 2pm: class gathering

.. im sure i can make it lah!

wl -sinks in seat- im sure holidays are relac la..

2006-09-04T22:17:00.000+08:00

bouts of <3 and randomness

eve

hm + sy

that whole day at sentosa

jiamings not weird

chi-PT related

2006-09-04T01:34:00.000+08:00

backtrack.
Huixun--Lingying
Haha yay my manda was finally done! Then i reached SPH late everyone was busy bballing.. Zz. After a while, started printing, then th LingYing ppl damn nice lo help me fold and stuff (: (even though partly also because they wanted to use the copier, but they STILL did help) Chayyeow also. :D

That day i was supposed to go out w/ Huiming and Syehyin for celebs of HM birthday on th 5th, butbutbut i busy loh >< At SPH whole day.. End up they come and look for me and we SIAOphotowhore right outside SPH haha..

Huiming: rly rly rly sorry abt th day >< haha then you are still so nice abt it make me feel so bad la! thanks for what you gave me i <3 it! dont compare with what i gave you, cus price cannot measure the thought put into it. the fact that you handmade sth so nice for me means more than any old expensive shit (:

Syehyin: Goodluck for th comp! After tht must treat us OK :D and, looking gd eh? x)

Haha promised to meet them after i was done, then return to SPH. Helped with Lingying's huixun lo, return th favour. Br paid for dinner:D, and then we worked like robots while listening to Xie Chao generate jokes of all colours.. (we gave a colour to each of these: sick jokes, racist jokes, lame jokes, political jokes..) haha he rly damn (Y) loh so many jokes =__= Huan Lin most loved the Sick ones la, zhen shi de.

Halfway, copier broke down so Br had to zao to Zao Bao t print. Hardcore haha he say dont do fin dont go home. End up the ZaoBao printer quality like shit, and he came back with the cover page of Huixun looking like shit also. ): Yiwei's face(on the front page) was striped, and it came off in powder form also, end up on our fingers as good smear-on-Huanlin's-face substance:D :D

Zz everything was done at 11plus and dad came to pick me up...so i didnt meet th duo after all ): ): sigh. Next time? I'm rly sorry><

Another mnth huixun/manda done (: Welldone lingying.

Backtrack.
Teacher's Day
To start off, the school performance was ZZBOMB. haha <3ed everything! from Naomi's song to the "Beatles" performance. From the "Teachers" play (from the roars of laughter we can tell everyone loved it (: ) to the band performances (MR TOH *_*!!!!)..

So, after all that enjoyment, we went separate ways. Some ppl go gai gai, some go their activites, some go back pr sch lo (oh the loyal ones :D ) me and chen went JBLK give TLS and XLS prezzies, then Chen went NanHua and i went... SPH.

Lol>< haha bo bian wht need to go Manda~~ Do do do.. Till around 4, i left to go Causeway, where 6N peeps and Mr Chow were.

Haha.. When i saw everyone sitting in a circle-- so many of them, plus Mr Chow, i almost cried out. It just brings back so much.. Everyone just talked and laughed, like old times. Mr Chow still ever so Big Bully-ish, and Jianhao still so disgusting haha.. The God of Lust? Or was it King of Lust. Whatever..

I missed you guys.

Whatdoyouknow, its the third year already. Everybody has grown, yet remained the same in so many ways. I am so very proud of 6N, that we still always meet up, and visit our teacher.. This flame might no longer be as big as before, but it shall not die out (: (: I <3 u guys.

In a while, popped in Macs to see Sophia and Alistair, with Fiona. Haha.. Words cannot describe how good i felt to see you guys. Those same faces.. same smiles.. The context and feeling might not be the same anymore, as i've not seen you two for a million years,but.. The warm fuzzy feeling remains(: It was so special, between us, in pr 6.

Special it remains, and i look 4ward to Hangout Day(: (:

i dont normally despise someone after a round.. normally it just dies without ill feelings. but this time round i've decided you are some unworthy shit.

2006-09-03T22:24:00.000+08:00

Siping's birthday celebrations: <3

Held at downtown east chalet and Chayyeow brought me along =___= then i felt so paiseh cus i didnt bring anything..

Ate and talked, then went arcade. Weilai got drunk, but not terribly. >< Chayyoew, Qingxiang and many others left like 10 plus, ): ): ): ): Played with Siping's couzzies (DAMN CUTE) Then after that a few of us walked around and went to the beach to bitch about bitches : D haha line from Zhicheng.

Then returned to Chalet, some play cards, some sing and play guitar, some watch watch and wait in line for Yuneng to be kicked out of the game. Moments later it was time for Present Opening Ceremony.. Some of those stuff are hilarious but shall not be revealed><

Dunowhatime, everybody bathed (most-body, apparently i didnt cus i hadnt planned to stay and didnt bring clothes><) and got in bed. Two men in particular shared a bed and judging by the groans and laughter coming from them they quite enjoyed it :D Names shall not be mentioned, but because it was in the presence of everybody else, we have photos as evidence (taken by single-man paparazzi Yiwei). :D :D

Went in and out of the room, cus couldnt get a bed and couldnt sleep. At around 5plus or 6 i eventually sat down to play Bridge with the siao ppl who had been playing since the night before. Wanted to stay>< but dad and mum came before i even got any sleep diao =__=

Anyways i wanna thank nice people for making it fun (: Even though i was very extra there (u guys were older, from YINGs, and most fr zhongyang) but i felt included. (: had a great time, even. ><

also a happy birthday wish again to Siping without whom it wouldnt have rocked (: (:

(no pics this time round)

2006-08-29T04:03:00.000+08:00

read till the end? Sometimes, I have ADHD..

2006-08-28T22:53:00.000+08:00

because its after you've been through everything, do you truly understand what love is.

at least thats how it is for me... and by my definitions, that and that is not love.

-shakes head- i think the speeches about love this afternoon are getting to me haha.

2006-08-27T01:03:00.000+08:00

haha RAGE XI last night, then Ban Jiang tonight. (: be patient, and i'll put up TXY links plus pics (: (:

<3!>

new link: louis! haha..

zz. though veh tired.. but i think its time to do Ten People again.

1) i dont rly care anymore what u think of me now i guess, cause it doesnt make a difference. (: as long as u're alright and happy.. haha.

2) sorry you couldnt stay thru-out banjiang... jiayou for ur work, and i hope to see u soon (:

3) you! i got nth else to say but get well soon, and i'll miss u ): u rock ok! dont die haha.

4) thanks for being there for me (: you have no idea sometimes how much i needed someone to say those things (:

5) haha jiayou lo! i will help you one. (: we will have frequent talks ok! lets make this mission ABC : D haha..

6) i rly dont knw whts wrong with you ): its killing me. u knw hw much i keep thinking wht ive done?

7) think u'll be reading this.. haha thanks for th card... and, i think i knw who alr! hahah i think i'll see u soon. (: tc.

8) ): i dont like u u damn what la ):

9) haha i <3>10) haha do take care (: you'll get over it, i know. (:

2006-08-25T01:16:00.000+08:00

"why are you giving up?"

haha..

maybe i'm afraid to disappoint you. maybe i'm afraid that you'd get angry.. but i've got an idea its more of the former.

it wasn't until today that i realised. until she asked.. i realised how much i fear that i'd disappoint you. not the usual kind of disappointment you get when you realise i've lied, or done badly in a subject. thats small case.

its the kind of disappointment you get when its your turn to realise.. i'm not the daughter you've always thought i was. and maybe i can't make it after all.

haha.. i'll try my best, kay?

2006-08-25T00:13:00.000+08:00

in one day...

"Eh i thought Lena was Joy!"

"You sounded like this judoka... When you said that just now."

"Lena looked like Ailin. I thought she was Ailin when she stand there like that.."

"LENA YOU LOOK LIKE ALDRIN TEE."

wah this one that best.

lol tian arh =__=

anyway debate is moving house. and zhixin is (Y) at making me emo. =__=

-- zhixin' wish upon a star says:
as aj said
-- zhixin' wish upon a star says:
it's the end of an era

-- zhixin' wish upon a star says:
sigh... that place is like
-- zhixin' wish upon a star says:
THE debate place
-- zhixin' wish upon a star says:
then we have all our debates tehre
-- zhixin' wish upon a star says:
and we always go up there for twice a week
-- zhixin' wish upon a star says:
now it's all gone.
-- zhixin' wish upon a star says:
same place, but not the same anymore.

(Y) gj. not sad at all loh not sad. ):

the thing that makes people do stupid things...

is it love?

im sensitive enough to know you're suddenly being hostile around me

2006-08-23T15:42:00.000+08:00

HOT STUFF

this is what i call a teacher who can hold students' attention

your best 4 x 100 minutes ever.. TRUST ME. haha.. (wait for the ad to be over while ur vid loads)
Feat. Tom Cruise, Lindsay Lohan, Paris Hilton, Angelina Jolie + Brad Pitt

and what do you know? turns out hollywood is so intimately related to survival in school..

2006-08-22T23:21:00.000+08:00

sometimes it doesnt hurt to go looking around at ppl's msn nicks...

siyi:
[twofourer'05] i just burnt my nose again and now i rule the leaf litter community.-_______-

arias:
don't save me zhixin and i rule the world, siyi rules the leaf litter community, mel's a loser and lee qi's a fruit.

leeqi:
[lee]qi* NOT A FRUIT

melissa:
mel. thinks squirrelnut is weird. once a fruit, always a fruit (unless eaten).

im so amused..

2006-08-22T18:46:00.000+08:00

wtf? no, really. wtf.

and also.. i'm not supposed to find this funny but i do. its hilarious la! ><

last, link by kersh, a little bit of sick plus a lot of ownage.. you'll see.

2006-08-22T17:13:00.000+08:00

everybody gives up one time or another.. their enthusiasm and drive wear off, and they become like any other one. but you. i think we'd need to wait a while till we see the results... but i secretly hope this time round the day doesnt come.

anyway.. today was Chi PT presentation, finally. Rocker, man. (: no need to be ego, but i wanna tell Siyi im very proud of both you and me (: haha even though sometimes it seemed like everything goes against us and there are rough patches here and there, but in the end we really did 双剑合并 and pull it off didnt we(:

haha make it sound like we learnt alot from one PT.. haha. but yeah its unforgettable for me.
Siyi send photos! : D

ever heard of parents sucking up to teachers?

anyway.. i'm trying hard to get a bit of sympathy around here.
haha, serious!

now i know how Siyi feels about the pimple on her shoulder. haha cause now, with sunburns on my shoulders, its no longer ok for everyone to just come up to me and go -SMACK- HEY LENA.

lol =__= zhen shi de. and zz yeah i blacken damn fast but whiten damn slow. so (Y) loh, i one day only, darker then chen alr.

and i think its really that bad. cause today even arathi was like..

arathi: Lena why you so tan!
ruiling: eh no she has always been tan
me: uh YAH LOH
arathi: no! you were not SO tan before this i KNOW.
me: uhh.. not true! i've always been this way.
arathi: no.. you look.. whats that word? you look CHAOTA.

=___= don't you think when its until the stage that everyone who looks at me are reminded of sth that is Chao Ta, its quite bad?

zhixin: she went to the beach with her boyfriend!
arathi: ohhh lenaa...
ruiling + arathi + zhixin: [about how scandalous i am]
arathi: LOOK LENA IS BLUSHING.
me: AM NOT.
ruiling: yah she's blushing!
ruiling + arathi + zhixin: [about me blushing]
me: AM NOT. -covers face- ITS THE SUNBURN.

haha yes debate exco meeting started like this, and ended (for me) like this too =_______= so i Zao very quickly.

suan la suan. chen i veh cham leh =__=

2006-08-21T21:03:00.000+08:00

heysyall.

i won't be holding on to my phone to about a week, so don't bother trying to reach me. haha.

anyway yesterday was slightly weird, but still fun in its way. so anyway i went to school today and everybody is like LENA WHY ARE U CHAOTA. but i also dunno why, but everybody seemed to know we went beach. =___=

aldrin tee also ask, anden accuse me of gg beach w/ my non-existent boyfriend. very funny.

=__= haha my fault meh, i chaota. before go alr quite dark liao, then still go beach for a whole day. zz, no sunburn, except the parts which were whiter before. pain sia.

no phone, no cam.. no nth ): i've about lost everything i can lose. (Y) next will be wallet (: thn i gt nth alr.

2006-08-19T22:54:00.000+08:00

author: lovestrawberries

I can't feel anymore. I stare at my hands, but they're dead. I throw them into the fire, letting the skin burn up and boil, the smells wafting up into the air. But I don't feel a thing. I can't feel the way the skin peels back and into itself, the way the blood starts to run up and boil in the coal of the fireplace.

You run out of the kitchen, alerted by the smell, and you yell. "Stop that! Fucking stop!" You yank my hands out of the fire and slap me, making my head snap to the side. "The fuck are you doing?! How many times do I have to tell you no to do that! Stupid fuck!" You slap me again, and I can't even feel that.

I see the tears in your eyes, and my heart wants to break. Your fingers clench into the already abused flesh of my palms, and those tears fall slowly and unheeded down your cheeks.

I turn my head so I won't have to see you cry, but you grab my chin and force my face back to yours. Your face is crimson in its anger, and your eyes are narrowed. "How many times? How many times do we have to go over this? You're not a fucking baby, Darien!"

I close my eyes, and you slap me again. "Look at me, damn you, look!"

I look back at you, slowly, and your lips crash down on mine, hungry and punishing. I kiss you back as best as I can, but it holds nothing for me now. I don't know how your lips feel, I don't know how you taste. I don't remember anymore, and I can't remind myself.

You pull away sobbing, and I hold you to me, my eyes looking over your shoulder.

I can't feel your skin on mine. I don't know that the rough denim of your jeans is rubbing against my bare legs. If I closed my eyes, all I'd fell was a dead weight in my arms, heavy and intrusive. So I have to keep my eyes open, to see your hair and your eyes, to see the way your fingers dig into my skin, because I don't know they're there.

"Do you love me, Darien?" Your voice is soft, and your tears have gone away.

"Yes." And I do. I love you more then this wretched life I live. I love you more then the once beautiful live I had, before the accident. Before I couldn't feel.

You pull back and stare into my eyes. "Do you really want to die, Darien? Could you really leave me alone to die here without you?"

I want to say yes, because I do. I want to die and give this up. I don't want to see you everyday struggling to make my life a life. I don't want to have to live like this. I don't want to see you anymore, because you remind me of all the things I had and want back.

"No. I won't leave you."

You slap me again, because you know I'm lying. You could hate me for this, just like I could hate you for it. But we're both pinned and nailed to this, holding onto each other while longing for other things.

This is love.

You shake your head at me and walk way, back to the kitchen. I don't watch you leave, but stare back into the fireplace, and I wish I could imagine how it would feel to burn up in it.

2006-08-19T22:16:00.000+08:00

article good for guys who are not sure whether your girl friend likes you haha.

today was fun (:

morning was late ): sorry siyi but we finally finished our dratted script :D yay rehearse!

big LOVE to arias who got me a decent present (: sweet thang. HAHAHA.

ok, and.. SPH! (: (: (: haha even though everyone bully me. zhicheng accuse me to raping jiaming =__= when jiaming is the one being mean and refusing to forgive me for slapping his stomach. =___= chayyeow was funny as usual (: yay to meet every week. and and the dance was cute.

haha sorry if some people don't understand. i'm tired, busy, and just gradually reverting to true form(:

seeya.

2006-08-18T23:10:00.000+08:00

: D

2006-08-18T21:43:00.000+08:00

想太多了，想太多了。

想你想疯了的想。

想故事里从虚拟世界走出来的天使的想。

想《我们的故事》的超想。

想为什么事情要怎么复杂的想。

想我虚构的好朋友是否会出现的想。

想如果拥有机器人的想。

想对不能有感觉的东西产生了感情的想。

想最喜欢的歌太多的想。

想脱离这个世界，变成下一个“董事长”的想。

想友谊到底是什么东西的想。

想人的感情怎么这么不受控制的想。

想其实你和我都一样寂寞的想。

想幻想绝对与事实扯不上关系的想。

想人的内心是否由故事所诉说的都是邪恶的想。

想为什么你态度好恶劣的想。

想不计较想原谅想对你笑的想。

想你们会不会想起我们的想。

想一切无意义的想。

想为你写个爱情故事的想。

想给你买个礼物的想。

想放弃了的更想。

想原来自己的脑袋能是另外一个世界的想。

想太多了，想…

想为什么我好奇怪。

*‘你’不一定每次都指一样的人。

2006-08-18T08:39:00.000+08:00

GO READ DAWN. Shes FREAKIN' CHIO!

T_T wowie man. she's one of the stomp bloggers lo ><

yeah and if u read Xiaxue's entries -- there was this one about Singlish and thought this wikipedia page is damn ironic/hilarious.

Loll man.

2006-08-18T00:26:00.000+08:00

cause xiaokui cried watching her loved one crying over his loved one..

zhen shi de. no matter who has made me smile or pretend to smile, it will not alter the lousy feeling i always get at the end of the day. damn good job loh.

2006-08-17T23:48:00.000+08:00

i've tried to treat you like a good friend, but i've had enough nao.

today is a good day, generally. based on the fact that most of our teachers are in a good mood.

i dont when it was that i've started defining a good day as a day when our teachers seemed to be having a good day...

anyways, some here and theres: this morning justin teo came in..

"did you see the group of people outside the staffroom? there are bees in the staffroom know. bees and wasps.. nobody dare to go in. i risked my life to go in and take the worksheet to teach you, so you better take out your worksheet now."

moments later.

PA system:

Classrooms in the D Block please DO NOT open your windows.

Classrooms in the D Block please do not open your windows.

There is a possibility that bees may enter your classrooms.

haha -imagines scenario-
EH then everyone will have to evacuate classrooms and there would have been no lessons! zzdarn. haha ><

english lesson was hilarious at the start.. we read a poem as a class, and also tried to bargain with Mr Toh for postponing the essay writing. but as always, he was firm, so then we wrote our Expo.

during lit, we asked ms huang whether she would take us for orals..

"i make it a point not to teach my lit classes. or else it wouldn't be fair!

you see me then you very happy and you will not be nervous at all, and will be very confident. cannot! must be fair."

(Y) loh win liao loh. Lit class rocked.. lots of laughs and talk about class sitting posture and stuff, but some of that should be kept within the class and anyways im too tired to think.

so... see ya.

zz chi pt! :D lol.

2006-08-15T00:47:00.000+08:00

will time wash away her pain? even if it will, her scars run so deep. and i feel it--part of it. i won't ever truly understand, unless i experience it for myself.

her life's the diary of a young little girl dressed in old rags, chained to heavy wooden chairs. its the terrible secret hidden behind her brightest smile.

haha maybe its hereditary, but you won't know what i'm talking about.

its been so painful. its been so painful. its been so painful.

so many years have passed; have you found what you're looking for?

i'll help. i'll try my best. maybe i don't have it yet but soon.. soon, i will be holding it in my hands. i'll give it to you.

2006-08-15T00:42:00.000+08:00

i travelled back in time today. scrolling through the earliest posts in this blog, i regretted deleting all my old blogs -- regardless public or private ones.

some things can never return..

is it possible to change so much within this span of time?

2006-08-15T00:39:00.000+08:00

i was doing props for chinese presentation.. then my parents saw. and THEY LAUGHED AT ME. =__= i was like, -wear-

then dad laugh. so in indignance i went to find my mum. then she also laugh.

my little brother was so amused that HE WENT TO MAKE SOMETHING EXACTLY LIKE MINE =__=

eh zz so infuriating. can't do a PT without getting laughed at around this house.

2006-08-13T01:35:00.000+08:00

i know how you feel..

haha.

yeah and this (:

zzpain ):

2006-08-13T00:42:00.000+08:00

letters, soft toys at doorstep, folded paper stars, birthday presents, accompaniment, stalking, waiting, dates, pleads, begs, tries and again, money, tears, injuries, long messages and the longest ever received, sweet moving words, done all that could be done.

things that move people, that evokes certain emotions.. but they are anything but love.

when i get round to understanding that, i finally realised that i've been wrong all along. that sometimes no matter how hard you try, how daring you are, how eligible you might be.. if she doesnt like you, she doesnt.

all that crap about how after three years she finally realises that happiness has been within reach all along, and that her long time suitor is the best for her?

thats one in a million.

in turn, im not ready to believe those stories.

its time to get a move on, cause i'm not one to do silly stuff (: ok, not extremely silly stuff.

2006-08-12T22:35:00.000+08:00

day out

the inner peodophile working up

science centre

qiang mai

esplanade

gossiping away

siyi being her usual self

peodo likes young, yes.

my brother not included

(:

sentosa

chen, qiongye

"hello hello hello... the monkey will follow.."

mooon

an shing, yu hui

yu hui being poser

NDP day..graffiti!

performers!

parade!

pretty hand (:

pretty skies (:

fireworks (:

night lights (:

chen, anshing

farewell, renda performance item

dinner

the trio

departure night, photoshoot

airport..

短短的两个星期快快过去了。

电话里满是你们的相片。

与你们在一起的时间不多，对你们的认识也不很深，可是有接触到的你们的点点滴滴我记得一清二楚。

“你们真的好可爱。” 当队副的心情我终于理解了。

虽然到了离开的那一刻都没有任何一滴泪，也没有看见你们闷闷不乐，所以我也没说什么。
…但我其实好舍不得好舍不得。也不知道为什么，我难过了。

情景一点也不像我们去台湾的那一次--热泪盈眶的我们依依不舍地拥抱队副，还让队副安慰我，逼我上飞机。

这回儿可不同。看着你们有说有笑，兴奋不已地登机去，我有些不甘心。

“怎么每次难过的都是我？你们一点感觉也没有吗?”心里是这么想的。

孙毅走了过来，再次摸摸我的脸，问我哭了吗，我说没有，还对她笑。

终于，他们一个个告别了…我望着他们的背影却无法转身离开。

真是的。

走吧走吧，你们。我们十一月见。

2006-08-11T12:14:00.000+08:00

Checkitout!

An Evening With Harry, Carrie, and Garp

Celebrated authors Stephen King, John Irving and J.K．Rowling read from their fav works....

Hot stuff for yall readers (:

2006-08-07T23:06:00.000+08:00

haha great.. the irony. the previous post i tell you to be all smiles, but now im all wtf. fgjkshdjsk. worried like some shit lah damn wht la. just the thing to make me feel worse (: i hate myself so much sometimes.

2006-08-07T22:00:00.000+08:00

每天一定要做到三件事，

第一，要笑；

第二，要微笑；

第三，要哈哈哈……大笑！

英崎名言噢。

2006-08-07T20:53:00.000+08:00

"why you paste eight dollars on your ceiling arh?"

"i keep thinking that all dogs are named Bruno."

"your not as happy as you appear to be."

"you know we are total opposites?"

"what kind of soul are you?"

"why is the heart black?"

"because of fate."

"u want chilli?"

"you think?"

"will u?"

"truth."

2006-08-07T01:09:00.000+08:00

again, msn.

FOR 309!
PICKUP LINES

2006-08-06T23:26:00.000+08:00

maybe its time (:

i've to make a decision.

end everything

so damn tired wtf so damn tired.

2006-08-04T21:08:00.000+08:00

Damn

Someday I will rule the world.

Someday I will rule the world.

Someday I will rule the world.

Someday I will rule the world.

Someday I will rule the world.

Someday I will rule the world.

20 years later.

I finally rule the world.

What am I supposed to do now?

Damn.

HAHAHAH. AUTHOR

2006-08-04T19:19:00.000+08:00

H.O.T. - Candy
Romanized by: Cathy

sah shi leun oh neul nuh wahn yeh man nah meul jung re hah
go ship uh nul man nal guh yah ee ruhn nal ee heh heh
uh ryup geh mam jung han guh rah neh geh mal hal guh ji man
sah shil oh neul ah chimeh gun yang nah soong gak han guh yah

* heh sah leh ee luh nah boh nee nuh muh nah noon buh shuh
moh deun deul dah byun han guh yah nuh yang han maeum doh
gue ruh neun nah reul byun nah shih keul deh nih kah

nuh moh lae moh lae moh lae dah reun yuh jah deul gwah bee gyo bee gyo heh jee jah kue man geh uh juh neun hwan sang soh keh hon jah suh ool goh ee neun choh rah hah geh gah yuh buh rin nah reul boh hah ssuh nul duh nal guh yah um! nuh duh nal guh yah um! hah jee man ah jik gah gil sarang hah neun guh gue rae gue ruh jee man nah mam soh keh nuh reul ee juh kal guh yah

* muh ree eu roh bee cham neh hah neul bah rah dah boh myuh
nuh hang han maeu meul ee jeh neun goh cho chi man
weh nee leen jee neh geh dah dah gah gal soo rok
oo rin gah teun hah neul ah reh suh ee suh jee

dahn jee nuh sarang hae ee ruh geh mah lae jee
ee jeh gut joon bee heh duhn mah neun mah leul dee ruh
han cheh uhn jeh nah nee yuh peh ee seul geh
ee ruh geh yak soh keu hah geh suh juh hah neu leul bah rah dah boh myuh

neh geh hah neul ee yul lyuh ee ssuh gue rae gue rae nuh neun nae ah peh suh ee goh gue rae
dah reun huh nin deu leun kee sue reul heh hah jee man hang sang nah neun nuheui dweh
ee suh yah man heh ee jeh guh man heh eum nah doh nam jan deh eum nae maeum nuh doh al goh
ee neun gul ah lah gue rae ee jeh nah doh jee chyuh suh hah neul man bah rah boh soo bah geh

Repeat *

han bun duh han bun duh mah lae jee
ee jeh gut joon bee heh duhn mah neun mah leul dee ruh
han cheh uhn jeh nah nee yuh peh ee seul geh
dah shin nuh hon jah ahn nya nuh heh yoten neh gah ee chah nah

LOL KOREAN XD

2006-08-04T18:53:00.000+08:00

haha mr tee is (:

yay nao i <3 lotsa teachers. Lv Lao Shi included. And Mr Toh -- no matter what. And two or three more.. Zz.

Mr Tee: Siyi do you think that your hair is big or small?
Siyi: ... ... Small.
Mr Tee: Who thinks that Siyi's hair is big?
-more than half of class raise hands-

: D

haha yay siyi (:

2006-08-04T17:49:00.000+08:00

听说了吗？

真正了解你的人是不会说一大堆废话来“证明”她了解你的。

更何况，听了这些废话后你会更清楚地知道她其实一窍不通。

她说我是这样，我说我不是。她说准没错，因为太了解我…… 是什么意思？意思是：“我比你了解你自己！”，还是“你不用狡辩！”

每当我做出了她不能接受的决定，她就对我的做法做出完全没根据的判断，而且找个拒绝的借口。而且每次都是一样的。

“朋友和周围的人都做，你就想跟着做！你到底有没有主见！”

刚进学校的时候，中一，我想参加你不喜欢的课外活动，你就是这么说的。“你怎么可能喜欢这个？！不要以为我不知道你是看朋友玩你也要跟！”是你让我一开学就对学校有了怨恨。难道参加华乐团就是我‘很可能喜欢’的吗？

当我突然对榴莲感到厌倦的时候，你也是这么说。你说：“怎么可能小时候怎么喜欢，现在突然不喜欢了！我还不了解你么！别人不吃榴莲你也不吃！”然后就为了这点小事，因为我的否认而又把我气哭了。

当我慎重地考虑后决定放弃学习日语的时候，你也是这么说的。“朋友一个个不学了，那你也不想学，想要多于的时间去跟他们玩？你干脆弃学算了！要去做Ah Lian就去做啦！”

“你也不想想，年尾的成绩被这个拉下去，值得吗？你怎么那么不会想！”

在你眼里我就是这个样。由你所说的：没有脑，没有用，老是跟在别人的屁股，没有主见………

你女儿我是不可能有可赞的地方吧。也许因为这样所以你从来不说一句鼓励或表扬的话。

你不可能知道，其实我比谁都更有主见。小事就免谈--我知道什么是重要，而在需要的时候我会做出我认为是最好的决定。我会再三考虑，会问他人意见，会做小调查…我知道我要什么，可是你不曾试着理解。如果我现在说我想退学，而且一生当个艺术家过活…如果我说我根本不想赚大钱…你会说什么?

你不可能明白，有时我想得比你还多。我了解自己的日语程度，也了解继续下去的后果：我会尽全力把日语拉上，最多刚及格，可是在过程中忽略其他科目。最终总分还是迅速下滑。
我也不想…因为我喜欢日语。我不想放弃，可是…是时候认输了吧？我投降。我弃权。我这样做…不是为了你所说挂在嘴边的“年尾总成绩”吗？

我不曾怪过你们骂我，因为我知错。常常，我不服是因为你做出了错误的判断，而不是“不知悔改，错了不知道自己错，还去怪别人”。

这一切一切，我不知说了几十次，想了几百次…我好累。

因为对你来说我的话太不值得听了。你就好像李老师一样，对我的偏见无法化解，我再说什么也是没用，而且反而被你说是骗子。

我不说了。

你的问题，我不懂得怎么回答。你做的假设，我也不太想纠正。我不是“因为表示抗议”而保持沉默的。

2006-08-04T00:30:00.000+08:00

finally : D

找你找得好苦啊

out of yahoo search, only TWO sites had this song and only ONE of these was playable.

:D

presenting..

CANDY -- H.O.T

MWAHAHAH.

>< eh wl i crush her! i want 305 rhd dance vid ): hahaha..

2006-08-03T22:19:00.000+08:00

been long before it felt heavy like that ><

been 3 years now..

2006-08-03T21:44:00.000+08:00

nth like gd vids to cheer someone up (:

link first given by hiok zz and i went clicking every link : D

one of my favvies.

Ms Swan Airplane

also watch "he look like a man"! :D

MS SWAN : D

2006-08-03T21:32:00.000+08:00

haha today was damn wtf.

(:

1) you know: all that talk about how we suck and how we should improve ourselves? its not really helping. (: ruffians of the level? why thank you.

three WTFOTCs in a day. damn (Y). mr teo will be so overwhelmed after he returns. (:

2) i was alr damn bu shuang. and then they give me all that shit. i couldnt help it. i'm sorry.

3) i don't know to laugh to cry or to be angry. its so absurd, this situation. i can't believe its happening, furthermore happening to me. (: hey should i persist?

i can't blame anyone, maybe. cause maybe the world just really hates me and its too bad for me. maybe only. (:

just like maybe i'm so tired now.

2006-08-02T22:02:00.000+08:00

Today Msn Feature Article :D

11 "Don't-Tell-the-Husband" Secrets All Women Keep

11 "Don't-Tell-the-Wife" Secrets All Men Keep

and for ze Leo's who dont surf msn (:
Top 10 Careers for Leos
i think its pretty accurate ><

2006-08-02T00:53:00.000+08:00

yougotpenged is <3! hahah i've fallen in love with the whole thing ever since i laid my eyes on it.. but i never got round to expressing it openly :D

haha zzz. go one of the posts: look for Ms Swan -- rmb the Vid we watched in Career Guidance? The woman at the Macs Drive-thru who drove the man crazy :D Well there's more to her! Haha zz hiok gave me a link two nights ago and i was watching till chao late x)

3 cheers for Ms Swan woah!

2006-08-02T00:44:00.000+08:00

想了就气

dammit its people like you who constantly give people like me an excuse to continue hating people like you.

i probably won't say it out, but a lot of people know that if Lena Lim hates anyone, its the _ _ _.

damn (Y). you slut you remember this. fag lah how dare you interfere with the only thing in school that i have passion for. almost destroyed my desire to continue with it anymore. causing me so much emotional distress and anger. you could have messed with anything or anybody else, but you chose this and me to do it.

you don't know how much of my nerves its rubbed, you bitch.

2006-08-01T21:06:00.000+08:00

late post

(Y) i screwed math test (:

but its a thing of the past nw (:

let me tell u about lit lesson on that day.

it was Aaall about dating. at the start of the lesson Ms Huang popped the question: If boys from LOTF were now all grown up which one would we choose?

Everyone but Alina and Zhixin, who chose Jack, rose hands for Ralph, i think.

Ms Huang: So Zhixin likes bad boys. Now we know that Zhixin's future boyfriend will be one who smokes and wears leather jackets.

Haha ZZ, then later Ms Huang ask who would like Simon! Then i decided i prefer Simon over Ralph, then i rose my hand. Haha then Ms Huang say i Hua Xin. ):

Lol then we found out what we were supposed to do. just LOOK. :D

Personal Ad #1
JACK MERRIDEW

"he's cool, he's hot, he's to-die-for.."
"he's RED HOT, PASSIONATE and will get your LOVE ablaze!"

Personal Ad #2
PIGGY (haha MY GROUP)

"I am your man!"
"fair and cuddly"
"yummy and piggy-licious! Date me today!"
"fondly known as Piggy.. real name shall be revealed on first date!"

"is HUGGABLE, INTELLECTUAL, and FRIENDLY.. with ME, you can get COMFORT and WARMTH that NO OTHER MAN CAN PROVIDE. i'm MATURE, SOPHISTICATED enough to create the BEST PLAN for OUR FUTURE!"

bonus!
"UNLIMITED LIFETIME SUPPLY OF CANDY" [my auntie owns a sweet shop]
"FREE refresher CPR courses every DAY!" [i have ass-mar]

Personal Ad #3
SAMNERIC

"DOUBLE HAPPINESS: BUY ONE GET ONE FREE!"
"Cheery, Vital and Playful, Samneric are your Best choices for a shot at Happiness. At your lowest times they're sure to Brighten Your Day with their Vibrant characters. These Loyal and Dutiful guys will also Stick to You through thick and thin and listen to your every Whim!"

Personal Ad #4
RAPLH

"THE MACHO MAN!"

Personal Ad #5
ROGER

(with Yenlin as the very naughty narrator)
"profile: devilish good looks, fit, bloody intense, daredevil, mysterious, supportive"
"do you find life dull and boring? do seek to unravel the hidden mysteries of life?
Challenge yourself! Try unravelling his mysteries! Your life will be boring no more. With this tall, dark figure in your life, expect him to overwhelm you with his hidden desires of intense passion."
"He's yours to discover! (and yenlin adds in) or UNCOVER!"

Personal Ad #6
SIMON

haha ok, this ad is the one ive been waiting to talk about.. it looks fine here right? except for a hole in the middle. yeah well guess what.

LOOK.

T_T haha during presentation they make siyi hold in and stick her face there..

its so damn funny la! the whole class was too bz laughing to listen lol..

i was like EH I THINK I DONT LIKE SIMON ALR.

haha zz T_T then on friday we went for LOTF screening.. zz it sucked la >< and the boys didnt all turn out like we imagined. like ralph for eg. lols but kevy noticed he'd look gd if his teeth wasn't like that :Ｄ

LOTF! ^^

2006-08-01T19:45:00.000+08:00

taken randomly (:

[RICH KID]
[ ] You go to a tanning salon.
[ ] You watch The OC/Laguna Beach/The Hills.
[x] You like going to the mall.
[x] You own an iPod/MP3 player.
[ ] You love Starbucks.
[ ] You have been called a brat/snob.
Total: 2

[GOTH]
[x] Black is one of your favorite colors.
[ ] you wear chains.
[x] You like heavy metal.
[ ] You love Hot Topic/Torrid
[ ] You have worn black lipstick.
[ ] You dyed your hair black.
[ ] You dislike preps.
[ ] You're an atheist.
[ ] You have piercings in unusual places. (tongue, belly button, etc.)
Total: 2

[SKATEBOARDER]
[ ] You can skateboard.
[ ] You wear plaid.
[x] You love Converse
[x] You think you're different.
[ ] You hate MTV.
[ ] You have moshed
[ ] You have/had/want blue, pink, red, purple, or green hair or highlights.
[x] You love skater girls/boys.
[x] You hate pink.
[x] You hate rich kids
Total: 5

[NERD]
[x] You love computers.
[ ] You like Star Trek.
[x] You wear/are supposed to wear glasses.
[ ] You get straight A's.
[x] You love reading.
[ ] You are in band.
[ ] You don't care what you look like.
[ ] You have a curfew.
[ ] You always do your homework.
[ ] You never skip school.
Total: 3

[EMO]
[x] you are sad sometimes
[x] You have black-rimmed glasses.
[ ] You like the band Thursday.
[x] You comb your hair in front of your face.
[x] You cry easily
[x] You like emo music
[x] You hate being called emo.
[x] You like writing.
[ ] You have written a sad poem.
[ ] You have/had a sad MySpace layout.
Total: 7

[GHETTO/GANGSTA]
[x]You like rap.
[ ] You are in a gang.
[ ] You wear Tag.
[ ] You say "nigga" frequently.
[ ] You wear rubberbands in your pants.
[ ] You swear a lot.
[ ] You have had a freestyling contest.
[ ] You have said "fo shizzle".
[ ] You have been called a "playa".
[ ] You have worn Converse with the tongue flipped out.
Total: 1

[SCENE/HARDCORE]
[ ] You wear a bandana.
[ ] You love the Ninja Turtles, etc.
[ ] You never walk anywhere.
[ ] You wear slip-on Vans.
[ ] You love Norma Jean.
[ ] You wear band tees.
[x] People have called you a freak and mean it.
[ ] You love to "hardcore" dance.
[ ] Your hair has been dyed in more than one color.
[ ] You will kill if called a satanist.
Total: 1

[PREP]
[ ]You love Laguna Beach/The OC/The Hills.
[ ]You want/have a small/medium sized dog.
[ ]Your everyday outfits consist of pink.
[ ]You're a shoe fanatic.
[ ]You shop at AE, HOLLISTER, A&F.ETC.
[x]You love to shop!
[x]You like Skirts.
[ ]You like Paris Hilton.
[x]Getting your nails done is a fun thing.
Total: 3

[Athletic]
[ ] You watch World Cup and/or prefer a specific group
[x] You own track shoes or cleats
[ ] You collect your jerseys
[ ] You have a special shelf for trophy's and awards
[ ] You have posters of famous athletes
[ ] Your garage/shed consists of sports equipment
[ ] You belong to a school team
[ ] You are going/have gone to a sports summer camp
[x] you have a specific number prefered for your jersey
Total: 2

IM NOT EMO. =____= zz shit.

2006-07-30T20:00:00.000+08:00

haha, Hui Xun was friday. Thursday i went back to start printing Man Da and made a new friend Chun Hui (: Then the printer went out of ink so i went back.

Zz, friday the real thing. Almost the whole of Qun Ying was down there i think? Haha it was damn fun. Chun hui was around and a great help to me. So was the friend of Jun Nuo, whom i realised was called Qiong Wei.

Zz and ppl like Cecilia and Qu Li. Chay Yeow there too!

Zz and some other guys.. This RI dunnowho and this guy they called STD. haha jerks lah dont wanna talk abourrit.

Chay Yeow returned at about 9plus, after we've finished everything, and we talked. Then he force me eat his rice =.= haha out of goodwill lah. Then we talked and talked and talked, but halfway his parents called. And it wast the first time i see Chay Yeow lose his temper ><

So we went back.. Zz.

But overall was good. I want to go again, next mth huixun! x)

2006-07-30T19:26:00.000+08:00

HAHAHA GO ZHIXINS BLOG LATEST POST!

HAHAHAH DAMN FUNNY.

but zz ignore the last few photos =.= arias stace leeqi and mel were the ones who wrote =.=

yes on that fateful day whereby you saw a big _________ on the whiteboard and i had to spend five minutes of Chem, with Mr Lau and the rest of the class staring at me, erasing of the permanent marker ink.

-grim-

it was a traumatising experience.

2006-07-30T17:15:00.000+08:00

Yesterday was hazardous to my health.

Time: 9.15-11.30
Place: School
We had Refresher CPR course, which was ok. And you know how we're supposed to shout "HELP! Call Ambulance 995!"? Well.. Sal came up with an even more attention grabbing line guaranteed to have people running to you in seconds. Eh but its obscene.

Time: 11.30-12.30
Place: Cineleisure
Me Leican Kevy Jia Stacey Husena, lunch.

Time: 12.30-13.00
Place: Somerset Mrt
Reporting place for Flag Day, waiting to collect donation cans and watching people in the earlier shift come back with full tins =__= suan la suan. Stace and Husena left for Esplanade, the rest of us left tgt.

Time: 13.20-17.00
Place: Plaza Sing
Standing around with my donation can, smiling at every passerby asking "would you like to donate?", saying "thank you" if they ignore you or give you a dirty look, and saying "thank you very much" if they stop to make a donation.

Was getting a lot of money compared to Leican so we switched spots. Then got more money. HAHA ><

Cause there were like groups of ppl who like stopped to make donations. Damn cool. Then made new friends >< Haha cause after that one of the groups returned for like 3 more times >< Then everytime come back also seem to have more coins one haha.. Cause they either went to change, or went to buy new things. Total like donated a lot of money >< They talk to me, and kope all my stickers to paste and form a heartshape one of their shirt =.= and then they uh.. took my photo. Lol and ask number. Zz but they very nice la happy to make new friends (:

Also made friends with this girl giving out flyers for Made with Love. (:

Zz.. Standing outside PS then the manager chase us away eventually, so we sat at the steps along PS to rest. But then Kevy's tin like still quite empty so me and her go right outside Dhoby Gaut mrt.. Got loadsa business so Kevy's tin fill very fast. There was this man i approached that collected sickers. See conversation.

Man: Eh different sticker..
Me: Haha yah they make a variety.
Man: Eh actually you know i collect stickers? I wondering if you could give me maybe one sheet or two..
Me: -gives 1- eh sure sure!
Man: how bout two?
Me: uhh.. -hesitates cause its the only one ihave left on hand-
Man: i donate lah you give me!
Me: uhhh.. ok lah ok la!
Man: -donates two bucks-
Me: thank you!
Man: haha cause i collect stickers yknow.. thank you!

so after he left i ran back to the others and take two sheets more, the Heart Shaped one. about 15 mins later i saw the man.

Man: eh you have the heart shaped one arh..
Me: haha yah..
Man: can i have it?
Me: uh.. how bout we exchange? give me one of the sheets you have and i give you one of this..
Man: no lah you give me this la.. i donate somemore...
Me: ..... ok loh.
Man: -takes two sheets- -donates another two bucks- because you know i came here from Chinatown.. I walk around Chinatown hoping to find but nobody had full sheets arh.. Then i was thinking Dhoby Gaut, maybe will have. So i came here..
Me: uhh.. haha ok.
[more small talk]
then we said our thanks and goodbyes, and he left for NDP preview.

haha ): so sad we couldnt watch.

Zz>< Met a few tikos.

we went back at 5.

Time: 17.15
Place: Somerset Mrt
We returned out tins, and bought tissue from the famous Singing-in-wheelchair Auntie! Rmb the One Dollar jingle? haha YESS. I sitll have the tissue in my bag -proudly- ^^ she even TA:LED TO ME :D

Time: 17.30-18.30
Place: Orchard Mrt
Supposed to meet Siyi but she was late. Haha for once i was actually Waiting for someone instead of the other way round. So rare mans.

Time: 18.35-7.15
Place: Takashimaya
We went to library to find Ge Dou. Then damn smart, we found that both of us the library card "Loan Quota Reached" :D Proded. Then Siyi had a bright idea.

"EH THERE GOT ONE RGS GIRL WE CAN ASK FOR HELP. I GO SEE."

and then she returned. "EH LETS GO ASK HER." But then Siyi don't know her so she don't dare to ask =.= So literally drag me (cus my legs were dying) to the girl.

It turned out to be a 305 person. The conversation went like that.

(in front of her)
Me: EH BUT THEN SHE DONT KNOW WE FROM RGS LEH.
Siyi: OH YAH.
Me: Eh nvm! I got my rgs uniform in my bag i go show her!
Siyi: Okok! Go! :D
Girl: ....
Me: Eh.. Hello! Uh we two uh the library card loan quota reach.. Then uh..WE ALSO FROM RGS
[struggles with bag, with much effort pull out a handful of clothing to show]
Siyi: HAHAHAHA (damn supportive =.=)
Girl: ...Ok..
Me: Uhh.. YAH! Then we saw you.. Then we were wondering whether can help us..
Siyi: Let us borrow one book..
Me: Yah.. Using your card. One borrowing space.. ><
Girl: Ok..
Me: Uhm! -fumbles with wallet and pulls out student Ez-link- NAH! Take my elink!
Girl: no its ok..
Me: Mvm one inside no money one! Just for you to have my name and ic number.. Yah..
Then when after i return the book i will come look for you and collect back the elink ><
Girl: What class are you from?
Siyi: 309.
Me: Yah! 309! and she is -points to siyi- ..uh, 309 also. uhh, YAH.
Siyi: HAHA
Girl: I'm from 305 -gives card-
Me: Uh THANK YOU! WE WILL RETURN ON TIME ONE! -takes card- UH LATER COME BACK GIVE YOU CARD! -runs off-

HAHAHAHAHHA. SO LOSER RIGHT. T_T Gahh.. I was quite jingzhang what!! >< Haha zz..

So finally we got the book. Then after that my stomach was rumbling. We looked for food. Along the way i was educating Siyi on how when people go support ppl in school concerts they normally buy and give flowers to show support. Cause apparently this Handbells concert that we were going is Siyi's first one. Haha..

Cause we decided not to buy, but still want to show support, we found the ultimate method (: Siyi went to take photo of the label of this jewellery shop named Flower. =.= and she took pictures of flowers from Potted Plants and flower displays. (: (Y)

After that walk walk walk.. Then we spotted some other flower.
We were like EH SEE THAT SHOP INSIDE! GOT FLOWER! LETS GO PLUCK!
HAHAHAH THEN CHAO FUNNY YOU KNOW WHAT HAPPENED.

Siyi: OKAY LETS GO INSIDE THE SHOP! ..EH HOW TO GO IN!

Hahahah cause we were looking through glass, then when wanted to go in we couldn't find the door. Siyi spent about a minute looking for the entrance to the shop hahaha.

We were planning to tell Ms Chong:
"Um hi Ms Chong.. We wanted to pluck flower for you one... Then hoh it was inside this jewellery shop... But then hoh.. We couldn't find the entrance to the shop. So in the end never pluck."

:D

Haha (Y) we damn rock. And we spent like the rest of the time like blind mice around Taka looking for food. Take escalator when we shud take lift and take lift when we could reach faster with escalator. (:

So in the end by the time i buy my Siew Mai and other Dim Sum we were running late. So just chiong through the whole of Taka. Got lost, and chiong again. Haha until we reach the busstop. In a way its quite an achievement cause the two of us just the blind lead the blind, and for every time we go one way, we had gone a wrong way before that.. So its quite pro we reach the busstop alr.

I was so hungy i held my dimsum and at the busstop (: So not weird (: Met Charlene and Xuefen on the bus.

Reach school.. Outside the school were flowers on the ground, and Siyi wanted to pluck. Luckily i walk away fast. Haha.. Then when we reach the gate, there were FLOWERS. Real flowers for sale, in our face. Held by PITs.

I forgot, "The good thing about concerts held in school is this". haha i told that to Siyi. Zz why can't PITs sell flowers at concerts in VCH or Esplanade too T_T

Zzz. Concert was good (: We saw Ms Chong perform and Kelly also. Ms Ang was there, her hair cuter then ever. Mr Teo was there with his mum and wife! X) SO SWEET. Haha the two of them wore Qing Lv Zhuang somemore (: (:

Later on we saw Joy and she said this: Just now Ms Ang came with her friends but it was dark and i thought it was only 3 rgs girls so i told them to buy flowers. Then Ms Ang said Hi Joy.

HAHAHA. This reminds me of the AJ incident la! "Don't worry i won't bite!" zz damn cute (:

Concert was damn zzbomb (: Choir (Alumni?) had guest performance and i liked For The Longest Time.

Talked to Mr Teo Ms Ang and Ms Chong, and had a few candid shots also.

Finally, with my headache and stomachache and leg muscle aches, i went home and reached at 11plus, to get scolding from my parents (: Long story.

2006-07-30T16:23:00.000+08:00

i put on my earphones, and your heated words slowly dissolved away.

2006-07-27T22:34:00.000+08:00

i like sitting the bus at night..

zz its damn.. that way.

the feeling i get when it rains, or when night falls.

zz, just that way.

a little creepy, but in the thrilling way. like my childhood nightmare that now still haunts me even in the way. .. i like it (:

no dreamy no..

just that way.

haha zz i shall come up with a term to describe this feeling.

just like how i used x. and L..

many ppl have asked what XL stands for. and i never answered cause its so hard to explain.. that its not initials of names or first letters of words. its just there.. as its own.

so i let them come up with stuff like extra large. haha.. sometimes someone goes "eh where got guy name X one! not Xavier then still got what!"

haha.. also because.. its too personal. and also because i came up with them, i was afraid that if i were to tell someone she'd go =__= diao?

zz but this is my blog.

X and L are NOUNS. no shortform, no nothing. NOUNS.

x is the u___l___ (that exists in situations whereby there emotions are likened to that of in IP)
L, is a figure that takes many forms/characters. all fiction or dreamed or imagined. i cant list examples ><

zz. this feeling, its called. .11
zz and very related to taiwan trip, yes. (:

2006-07-26T22:59:00.000+08:00

i wonder what you're thinking of,
as you sit there all day long, handicapped by old age and inconvenienced by diabetes.

your large round eyes turn to stare at me, but i dare not look back. i've often gazed at people your age, silently wondering how life is like for you.

do you feel helpless? do you feel like you're a burden? do you know what your children think about you? do you get up to sit in the dark all by yourself and weep at night?

or do you feel enlightened? you've spent some time looking at the world from the sideline now.. what have you realised? do you know something we don't?

whenever i approach somewhere near you, i put on a bright smile and greet you, but quickly hurry away. but why? what am i afraid of?

i recall the many times ive seen an elderly person and felt the urge to draw nearer.. to sit beside her and scrutinize her wrinkled face.. to ask the many questions that i've always yearned to ask.

you've lived for so long now...

what do you know about life? or are you, like the rest of us, still none the wiser?

i know, it's a matter of time -- a few years only, in fact -- before i go through what you are experiencing right now. the funny thing...everytime i've been told to 'see' my future self, i've never pictured the huge successful artist that i want to be. i closed my eyes..and i've always seen old age and death.

in you.. i see my future self. sort of.
so curious, excited, scared, eager.. to find out more.

2006-07-26T21:11:00.000+08:00

Sms Convo

Me: SIYI YOU GOT SCANNER? The surds lesson i never come then i dunno anything! My ws empty!
Siyi: Eh i dun have leh! Sorry.. Hurry up go ask someone else, or i can give u the answer but i not sure corRIGHT or not, or uask jteo give you the ans? Heh, Sorry!
Me: Eh orh.. ><>< mafan ni!

15 mins later siyi call me.

Me: HI SIYI
Siyi: You esprain!
Me: huh?
Siyi: You esprain! What sms the answer? How to sms you esprain? SQUARE ROOT four over..
Me: HAHAHHA. so you tell over the phone isit! ><
Siyi: Ya..
Me: Eh i call you back later i reaching home then now i dont have paper and pen also..
Siyi: Kay
Me: THANKS!!

Zz so we just had another convo.

Me: Hello may i speak to Siyi?
Siyi: Speaking.
Me: Oh! -shrieks- Hi siyi!!!
-Silence-
Siyi: huh?
Me: Eh.. hello!
Siyi: Oh, er did u call me just now?
Me: Why..
Siyi: I went out just now..
Me: Go where!
Siyi: huh?
Me: Go where!
-silence-
Me: ok nvm
Siyi: so which one!
Me: Surds loh!
Siyi: uh you want the first page answer? the first page is all the Objectives and Key Understandings leh...
Me: YAP!
Siyi: [imagine her blinking] You.. want the answers to the.. objectives and understandings..
Me: NO! Below got the square root in the form of dunnowhat one..

Zz then Siyi started giving me the answers that she had :D Reading square root and stuff (:

Me: Eh the questions below difficult anot.
Siyi: Ok la.. Aiya that one chicken feet la, compared to the other one. Dont need to do one la!
Me: .. YOU SAY ONE ARH. I SAY SIYI SAY ONE. YOU SAY ONE.
Siyi: whatever la.

haha zz i damn bo liao. ZZORR DIE FOR MATH. ><

2006-07-26T20:07:00.000+08:00

zz

GO RI GUITAR ENSEMBLE CONCERT :D

Price: $8
Date: 25th Aug, Friday
Time: 7.30pm
Place: RJC

(: those who want to go but have yet to buy Tix ask me :D zz someone wants to sell a lot of tix =__= and we can sit together. haha..

(: go!